I won't give up and I will keep telling my story for as long as it takes.
Fear, shame, and silence only provide a shield to my abuser. I have found the strength to tell my story in hopes of changing the culture, stigmas, and systems that protect sexual abusers. The healing path of a sexual abuse victim is riddled with opportunities to turn around and head back. As the path veers uphill upon rocky terrain, it would be quite easy to turn back in the name of safety. That hesitation is valid. This path isn't for everyone and takes vast amounts of boldness and determination to keep moving forward. And I keep moving forward.
All I seek is accountability. My path might not end with justice, but I will continue to tell my story in hopes of holding people accountable. While this is a deeply personal journey, it isn't just about me anymore. It is about every child and adolescent who had their innocence and childhoods taken from them. It's about modeling how digging deep to find one's voice and courage can truly help to make change. It's about showing how raw vulnerability can break the shields created by fear and shame where abusers are able to hide and thrive. I know there are more tough times ahead.
Times of retaliation where I will need to be even stronger while being grounded in the truth of my story. It's also about realizing that my story is no longer unique. It is all too common. So I find my strength in the thousands of stories like mine. I know I am doing my part to change this sad narrative.
I keep fighting. I keep telling my story. When I almost broke, I spent the hours in therapy healing and finding strength. When no one wanted to help me tell my story, I started my blog and wrote the story myself. When the PED drug their feet, I kept calling. They might hate me now, but all I am asking is for them to do their job. When I hear my abuser is calling me insane and crazy, I just keep pushing because the only crazy thing in this story is imagining living in a world where the Rodney Wrights of the world can advance their educational careers on the backs of the kids they abused. If the people in his life don't like this story, take a look at the person who created it. I would have NO story to tell if he hadn't spent his time selecting, grooming, and abusing me and his other victims. The only person to blame is him.
I finally found someone to help tell my story. I was able to send the right email at the right time. I have no idea where this will lead, but I am happy to turn a spotlight on an abuser and the systems that protected him.
You can see her extended interview about my story below as well.